HI EVERYONE.
I'm in Santa Monica, California.
I moved out of Toronto and now i'm here.
I kicked off my weekend to make it to my first acting class on Saturday morning and I'm happy that I booked my flights when I did (aka the night before I flew out).
The last week before I left was this hectic week of organizing STUFF and PACKING and trying to say goodbye ... by the time I was finally sitting on my plane, I had realized what I was doing and it caused me feel so overwhelmed I weeped silently for 40 minutes thinking about everyone I wasn't ready to say goodbye to... or didn't really get to say bye to.
But it's no difference from me being busy in the city for two weeks at time and not even getting to see you at all.
From being entirely across the continent in a city that brings me more happiness than my actual home does...
the difference is what's feasible.
And how feasibly easy it is for me to see you
whenever I want.
And it's not a half hour drive anymore,
just a message of under 5 words that doesn't do the justice of how much I've never wanted two things equally at the same time.
You / and / Me.
(In all sense of mutual exclusivity.)
Anyway.
I love Bon Iver because his lyrics are so profound and it always feels like he's just talking to you because you're seeking counsel and he's got all the answers in the timbre of his voice.
Now that I'm out here away from all the crazy things I choose to put in my life... I can write again.
This will be good.
This will be great.
I love you all.
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